When the Faith Is Unfaithful

Antwan Jennings

You took her …
You took her from me
They told me that coming to you is a blessing
You can tell from
The tears in my eyes
I disagree
They say that you aren’t there when we need you but you are always on time
But those very words are a contradiction

…. So how can I pray to a “god”
Who is my so called creator?
So called “savior”
You took my friend to dine with you
Does she sit to sip wine with you?
But you were too late
Did you lose your watch or something?
They told me they will pray for her
Time after time
But her time did unwind
And I was just hoping you could flip her hour glass upside down again
My smile turned to a frown
Emotions replacing tiles again

They told me she is happy now
And I’m jealous,
Because I never thought of a world of happiness without the 2 of us existing in one
Sometimes I wonder
If you have any extra seats
That if my heart beat faced defeat
Would I dine with you?
Or burn in hell beneath?
The shit I would do just to see her
One more time. To hear
The contagious laugh
So gentle to my ear
To be happy knowing the hour glass was just cracked and it didn’t shatter
To see her smile at me
And call me her life line
While we traveled through our lifetime
With each other…

Without the so called homecomings
And I don’t want to her take me to the king
Because he king was right in front of her
The bruises on my body would prove…
So how would your faith rate…
If you got a taste of what’s on my plate?
So I cringe at the thought of a savior
A savior we claim exists
Saying he holds the cards to our existence
But from the way he played her cards
He’d lose every game of poker

“Savior”?

No “god” or man would
Create someone so perfect
To leave me in awe of her flawless nature
Then corrupt me with his certain flaw
A death so hurtful to me I wished
For my own death, I’d accept it
Any way no matter the
Pain….
If I could just see her for one day
So dear “god”
My faith in you had drained
As her life strained
And her beating heart settled
So I refuse to put faith in fate when a simple prayer could be your death sentence
I’d rather sit in silence
As my memories of her fades away
And continuing to wipe my never-
Drying tears
It would seem to me you are ordinary
… Took some one so dear to me
Now I can’t fake the trust no more

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